Many times when I sit down to write a blog post, I start with an idea in mind but often times I end up following the lead of my spirit. For some reason, I feel as if this space is slowly evolving into a middle aged woman self-help space and I must say that is not intentional but more a reflection of where I am in my life right now.

For quite some time, I have been reflecting on an ever growing disconnect in my life, there is where I want to be versus where I really am. I imagine on some level, many of us have that internal battle about some area of our lives. However recent events in my life have made that disconnect seem even wider to me. A few events have happened in the past 24 hours that are forcing me to look at that disconnect and see that it really doesn’t have to be that way. Yet I am stubborn, I am a planner, I like to feel like I am in charge and really it’s all ego. The ego can be a nasty piece of work.

Tonight however a fellow blogger and online pal Kelly Hogaboom sent this message to me “You can make positive deposits in your own economy every day by associating with encouraging and hope-building people.” Reading that was truly a light bulb moment as cliché as it sounds. Too many times, I am guilty of keeping people in my life for a variety of reasons despite the fact that the connections are no longer beneficial to me. At the same time, I don’t open myself fully to the people and connections that are truly beneficial to me.  As a result, I am unhappy and disconnected and often filled with angst when it comes to my personal relationships. Can I just say that I am sick and tired of this ride and I am ready to get off.

So here is to making some intentional shifts in life, sometimes the universe sends us the answer in ways we least expect. For me it was 140 characters coupled with a few events that have kicked me out of my comfy seat.  Now I will start baby stepping towards lessening that disconnect and being where I want and need to be.